I haven’t wrote in awhile. Well..it’s been quite awhile actually. My reason? Well…I love to blog but it doesn’t really come natural or even easy to me. My sister is a natural blogger. She is exceptional and great. Her words will bring you to tears in a matter of 2.2 seconds. It comes easy to her…but me? Not so much. I have to think on it..and really figure out what it is I want to say. Today is no different. I am overwhelmed with feelings but don’t know how to say it all. My “easy” is pictures…photography…art…but not in words. No…Words are hard. They are difficult for me…and uncomfortable. They make things a bit more complicated. Putting myself out there to the world isn’t easy…but isn’t that what blogging is kinda about? I think so…so here goes. Here is me putting myself out there..

Happy New Years to my family. Happy New Years to my friends. Happy New Years to my neighbors…my co-workers…the people that mean the most to me…the people that WILL mean the most to me in 2015.  A little about me for those that may think they know me but don’t? Here we go. I’m painfully shy. I get anxiety just thinking about meeting new folks. I try to step out of my comfort zone because I love my husband to be (and he is far from shy). I “try” to step out of my comfort zone for my kids because my youngest daughter is like me…and I don’t want her to deal with the issues that shyness has brought me. I’m not saying shyness is necessarily a “bad” thing…but it can make things more difficult…or kinda harder than for more not so shy folks. Other things about me? I love my family. I mean seriously…deeply..and in all ways love my family. My children mean the absolute most to me. I breathe for them. I wake up and think of them. They are my reason..my purpose. Maybe crazy to some..but I know some parents understand that kind of overpowering…encompassing love. My husband to be means more to me than I promise lots of people that are married feel for their significant others. It’s kinda of an all encompassing…this is the real kind of love feeling. We found the “real” stuff. I know so many people never find that kind of love so I know I’m overly blessed to have found my one true soulmate. I am overly blessed indeed. Other things? I’m a nurse. Many days I leave work feeling so satisfied that I helped one person during my 12 hour shift. Lots of days I don’t. That’s the reality of nursing. We give continuously and many days…that’s all. We give. We don’t receive a whole lot in return…but for most nurses…that’s ok. We don’t expect a pat on the back or a thank you. We just do what we are supposed to do. What we are meant to do…because that is who we are. Giving human beings..that yes GIVE is who we are. We give in ways that so many people wouldn’t comprehend that type of giving. It’s a deep type of giving that only nurses and other medical and rescue personalle may understand. More? What else about me? Gosh..I don’t know? My Mom introduced me and my siblings to the world of art at a young age but back in the 1990’s (when I was in college) that wasn’t the way to go…but today? What would I go for? What would I reach for in my dreams? Graphic design maybe? Photography? Art? Some type of art…probably for sure. My father (even though he has never been a big influence in my life) was/is an amazing artist. It’s in my blood. On both sides…so there’s probably a big reason that I have that pull. Other things? I absolutely love the exact spot that God has led me and my family to. We are positioned right into the middle of paradise. My kids get an amazing education. We are surrounded by a wonderful group of neighbors..friends or future friends…people that my children will grow up with. Not everyone around us may recognize our blessings but I do. We are blessed. I grew up in a totally different world than I’m living in now..so I see my blessings. I feel them. Life isn’t always easy…but if we really open our eyes…we can see the beautiful blessings surrounding us. Happy New Years to my lovely friends…my amazing family…and the ones that will be brought into my life in 2015. Let’s make it a GREAT one…